the mind clearing thing was mostly because of my brother, we were in a clan for a while for video games and that's why theres that skull in my sig, with the words underneath to represent part of the code of honor which i forcibly obey in all aspects of life
anyways
that's great that you have something to resort back to when times get you down (like your code of honor) .. some ppl turn the bible, some turn to friends/family, you turn to you code of honor, i pop open a Heineken and say "F*ck it"!!

rofl
on the other hand shes a very open person and she hugs alot of people and it seems i am her friend, but ever since she learned how awkward i am when im hugged she then proceeds to do it more often, and shes asked some odd things before like during a long talk with her she told me her age/grade and about a minute later she asked if i was looking for a girl my age or younger than me so Perhapppsss im not certain so im even more confused, and shes never hinted at having a boyfriend at all...
damm confusing women 
i can see where the confusion lies .. the first part (that i put in bold) would suggest strictly friends ..
on the other hand the second part would suggest that she has an interest in you.. by her opening up to you would suggest she wants you become comfortable with her (b/c she knows that you feel awkward around her, so she initiates the conversation and tells you interesting things about her.. so you know her better without even asking.. (ppl who want to be friends normally do this) ..
the last part is the catch.. usually when someone asks what their personal interests are and uses themselves as a comparison (that's the age part).. that usually suggests that she wants you to think about her in that way.. to me, what i get from it.. is that she's attracted to you and she's "fishing" right now.. she's trying to open you up.. which is a good thing b/c usually the guy has to do this part of courtship but, she knows that you are shy and she's taking it upon her own hands to do you a favor and play both roles so you feel comfortable..
if i were you i'd say f*ck it and just go with the flow.. if it's not what it's cracked up to be, then f*ck it .. you always have you pencil and code of honor right? .. but, if it works out then WooT!!! for you buddy
