What To Do About Doubts

[Coryn]

It does sound like you were chasing that endorphin high, but doing it in a less than perfect way. But it's great that you can recognize that! If you've identified the behavior, you can actively avoid it. You just gotta check in with yourself sometimes. Ask yourself if you're legitimately feeling sad, or if you're just giving into that because you want attention.

That's not to take away from the fact that you can legitimately feel sad for no apparent reason of course. Morose moods affect all humans from time to time. There's no shame in that. It just comes down to whether or not you're actively trying to get something out of it, when you just need to ride it out instead. The caveat to this caveat being that using sadness to get something from someone is not the same as being sad and letting people know how you feel. It all comes down to if you're manipulating someone or not.

[IndigoDoll90]

I just talked to my doctor and he still thinks I have ADHD and now I'm starting to have doubts all over again. I tried explaining to him I just say I have it to feel sorry for myself but he seems so convinced that I actually have it. These doubts are even starting to affect my work. I find myself depressed and not as energetic as usual and unable to keep up at work which frustrates me. I talked to my counselor yesterday but I'm still having some doubts today and I'm kind of worried I won't be able to handle work again. It's just (and this is going to sound really geeky of me) I always wanted to have some kind of super power or talent, but it seems instead I have a disability. Lately Ive been reading about creativity being a super power but Even if I do have some talent it doesn't even matter because I still have ADHD and a disability.

[Coryn]

Look Indigo, whether or not you officially have it or not, you still need to address your situation in the same way. Lots of perfectly successful people have ADHD. It's not a stigma you should apply to yourself. It's just something you need to deal with. If your doctor says you have it, that's not a judgement. It's just a statement of fact. If anyone is judging you for having ADHD, then f*ck 'em.

[Suuper-san]

Yup 100% agree with Coryn.
Having ADHD or not is the same as needing glasses or not, it's something that can be dealt with and you can learn to live with it.

But IndigoDoll I wonder why you think that having talent doesn't matter if you have ADHD? That's like saying there's no point in being able to play guitar if you are in a wheelchair - they're not really related?
And I don't think it's geeky to want to have a super power at all, I certainly would like to be talented enough to consider it a super power XD