"Remaining youth slipping away", this really hits. I havent experienced it though XD and im fighting to urge to feel that way although im wondering if its futile. I keep hearing people in their 30's talking about bodily pains and say that wouldnt happen to me. Im fighting it

Maybe your sketch will be your long hair reality XD. Looks good. At one point i was wondering if my constant commentating was rubbing you the wrong way. Pressure and such. If i may when im dealing with pressure i try to give it a voice. Pressure in some cases is like a manifestation of conscious/subconscious thoughts/understandings and when giving it voice makes it easier to understand what you are going through and help you understand self. maybe you do this as you do know yourself very well.
Being emotional to me can be a fun ride and then not so fun. The best way to harness an emotional side in my perspective is to apply some hard cold logic and harness the emotions with the fact that you may not be in control of how you feel but how long you feel it for.
self control and discipline is one of the greatest acts of self love.
I could just be saying nonsense.

With your art schedule its good your doing what you want with it . Im thinking its probably in the effort to remind yourself that you are in control which you are and that's your freedom. So much good things can come from that.