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MR Pub / Re: Comeback/holidays/departure notice.

« on: August 09, 2017, 07:56:39 AM »

I know I've really been quite the on-off member around here, especially recently, so I'm not sure if it's really worth announcing like this, but here goes anyway.

I'm probably not going to be seen much around here - who knows, maybe I'll be back one day or occasionally lurk some - but right now I'm back to going through some pretty heavy stuff that I have to sort out one way or another, and I think it's better to stay offline for that period.

I feel kinda bad for not being able to contribute to the forum in the degree I would have wanted to. Despite my best efforts, I will always feel like an outsider, no matter the community. That's not to say it's anyone else's fault, no; there are some great people here on MR, for example. Everyone's always been really nice. I've had support from people on here with my art and many laughs were had as well. To certain people I definitely felt a connection to on a certain level, despite the fact it's been just text - but that's how I communicate the best. At any rate, this is simply how I am built, can't seem to change, and it's not just on here - it's everywhere with everyone, and I'm tired.

The reason for this cringy and emo post is it's hard to overstate the help I've been given by being part of the community when things have been hard for me. So I wanted to do more than simply disappear, for those who might care even a tiny bit. For those people I want to also add that I'll be fine. I just need to work on some pretty major changes, and I feel the need to distance myself from everything.

Brrr, such melodrama. Sorry.

Thank you all,

-Mona

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MR Pub / Re: The Velvet Room (aka the Tarot Thread)

« on: July 29, 2017, 12:28:53 PM »

I suppose while this stuff might be interpreted in any number of ways, I'd have to confess I'm shocked at the accuracy of some of the things. Some are problems I'm currently trying to actively tackle, but then again it might be somewhat obvious from the way I talk. Interesting nevertheless, and at the very least represents a deep understanding of how humans work and their patterns, as well as picking these things up. Or perhaps just magic. At any rate, color me impressed.

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MR Pub / Re: The Velvet Room (aka the Tarot Thread)

« on: July 25, 2017, 11:31:57 PM »

Hell, I'm not too touchy about this stuff (although who knows once it's going to be 100% on point)

I'd like a #3 sometime if that's alright.

On a sidenote, I like the font color change in this thread. Not only is it easier on the eyes, but it makes me imagine the color to signify talking in a mysterious, sultry and misty voice.

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Music / Re: RIP Chester Bennington

« on: July 20, 2017, 07:59:19 PM »

Linkin Park was a bit part of my early teens. Like for so many people, it helped me cope with some stuff.

Besides being sad for the untimely and unexpected passing of Chester, for me this also feels like the end of an era in its way. So much time has passed with LP around this really takes me way back somehow. This voice I've heard probably thousands of times by now suddenly makes me emotional in a way I wasn't prepared for.

Depression, it'll make you set far aside all that is good and nobody is safe from it. I'm sorry he couldn't find his peace in life.

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Anime Talk / Re: Which Anime series you are watching ?

« on: July 19, 2017, 08:13:13 PM »

Katanagatari, while not a perfect anime imo, is a pretty clever subversion of shonen tropes. Stuff like the 11 year girl being super powerful is not that new of a concept in a genre that lives on those sorts of b-movie-esque ideas. It's how the show deals with stuff like that, taking it to its logical conclusions. Most notably in how brazenly the show just states that Shichika kills people (rather than saying he "beats" them). Er, just wait till you get to the end and it'll show its cards.

I finished it back then, and while I enjoyed it as a whole... I'll hide it so as not to spoil it for anyone who hasn't watched it:

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I felt like the character motivations didn't add up at all towards the end. Yes, Shichika is "but a sword" and "a sword chooses its wielder", but his decision to join Togame at the start of anime always felt like there must be something more to why he agreed to join her. While Togame was a tropey, endearing anime girl character, the revelation about her and her overbearing lust for vengeange made me dislike her completely. It felt like betrayal, to have a character like that just say they've put up a facade for the duration of the whole anime, point blank and only revealing it because they're dying. A facade, on grounds that were never well touched upon in the anime, making the whole plot twist feel hollow. There were some other motivations as well that I didn't completely understand, but it might be just me.

All in all, it was worth a watch.

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MR Pub / Re: Healthy habits thread

« on: July 19, 2017, 07:54:08 PM »

It's difficult to just go out somewhere and try to get to know a bunch of people, but if you have extra time in your weekly schedule, you could opt for some club or other new type of hobby activity involving dealing with other people. It might be something you never even considered trying out but end up enjoying a lot while making friends, like clay pottery or something. All kinds of team sports out there as well.

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MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2017

« on: July 19, 2017, 07:38:08 PM »

Of course, if this is really about veggie subs and not vegetables, then I wouldn't say there's a reason for worry.

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MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2017

« on: July 19, 2017, 07:36:40 PM »

I do know what that feels like. Problem is, for me it usually goes something like this: I buy carrots, carrots good and juicy, I buy carrots again, carrots only have a faint taste of soil or *censored* to them (though properly washed) and I'll have to force them down in the name of wellbeing.

Not every vegetable can taste juicy and good but I lack the skill to tell the good and bad ones apart - they all look the same. I do know that sometimes a smaller vegetable/fruit will be more tasty as a larger one will have the same amount of taste, but spread out throughout the whole thing, but that seems to be just that, *sometimes.*

I'm also skeptical of life because I've been burned before by having been sold mangos that were being sold as "ripe and ready to eat." They never were. It was but a lie. It was a lie that left me torn and broken. It reminded me of cutting some fish in the worst possible way.

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MR Pub / Re: Healthy habits thread

« on: July 11, 2017, 03:25:27 PM »

I eat vitamins everyday (if I don't sometimes forget) and haven't really noticed a discernable difference to when I didn't take them regularly. I just take them in the hopes it'll help my body continue working normally for longer. I'm glad you've noticed a positive difference!

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MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2017

« on: July 11, 2017, 03:20:05 PM »

While I wholeheartedly agree, I'll just say I'm 99% sure that story actually never happened and the person must have made it up. It's inconceivable for a professional in the restaurant business to put such a nasty, dirty and contaminated thing as money inside a container with food, jizz or not. It shouldn't even occur to them to begin with. Anything's possible in this world, though, so if it did happen, I'll just wish a very swift end to the restaurant in question.

I accidentally joked some, but I'll put it in spoilers:

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(I've never used the words 'jizz or not' in a sentence before. It feels strange, but maybe I'll *come* to terms with it eventually. *Jizz because* it's a natural thing, after all. But anyway, I'm sceptical about that story - the internet has *loads* of stories like these.)

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break Room / Re: Happy Birthday Coryn!

« on: July 11, 2017, 07:26:31 AM »

Happy birthday!!

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MR Pub / Re: Happy Birthday Forlorn Serpent

« on: July 11, 2017, 07:21:50 AM »

I'm late too, but there's cake, so who cares right??

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MR Pub / Re: Healthy habits thread

« on: July 10, 2017, 08:19:35 PM »

People still keeping it up with their changes and healthy habits?

I have dropped taking cold showers recently, but the water is still slightly-colder-than-middle setting. I should get back to it as it's not much trouble at all and it made me feel good afterwards. Also dropped the ball trying to get better at cooking.

Some whining:

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I don't know. I relapsed like I always seem to. It's depressing - I don't seem to be able to hold on to anything except my *censored*ty job and completely wasting my free time on things that don't matter at all. I want to be something but I constantly feel like I'm not cut out for it.

After getting some stuff done for someone else the past week, I'm planning to get some more exercise, drawing and simple cooking done this week.

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MR Pub / Re: Dream Thread

« on: July 10, 2017, 08:09:53 PM »

It's weird for me but possibly completely normal - on my days off when I actually sleep enough, I dream about something as I'm woken up by my alarm. Since I could wake up immediately and be productive and stuff, I tend to just push snooze and turn on my side. I can repeat this process for hours with 15 minute snooze interval.

Now the interesting part is, I always dream about something, and when I wake up and get back to sleeping, the dream will continue exactly where it left off. Sometimes I keep snoozing just to see what happens next in my dream. I can watch long as hell dreams this way, while also enjoying the best feeling in the world - to be able to just keep on sleeping after your alarm has gone off and you've snoozed it. Sometimes it feels like lucid dreaming - I have control on what is happening unlike usually in my dreams.

Now, I'm not an expert, but I've heard the brain takes all night to develop your dreams, and the "output" you see is actually the work of many hours worth of deep sleep. I probably maintain REM somehow despite waking up for a small amount of time in between, but I still don't understand how the dreams can just continue and are of similar perceived length to the dream I was seeing before waking up in the first place.

The downside to doing this is I probably will get no additional rest from continuously interrupting my sleep like this, and I usually forget all about the dream within a few hours as well.

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MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2017

« on: July 08, 2017, 11:53:33 PM »