bad title, im sorry, so if you all have not heard, my mom died back in November, it has been very rough for me both mentally and financially. one big thing that is eating at me is my limited funds and the car payment, yeah i could just get rid of the car but there is only 2 more years left for financing.
i want to get that done this year but then there is issue 2, i can barely buy food with these bills. Good thing i moved back in with my dad but still. i have no idea what to sell people or commission, it also doesn't help that no one will buy anyway
i think the most recent thing that has been really upsetting me is that i'm part of a collab project... i'[m the one who pitched the story and since its a crossover collab, i can't just leave... the issue i'm having is that i basically do not have a single artistic job cause the other person believes they can do everything themself, on top of their own personal project. I can see this project burning because of it and when talking to them and it just causes an argument. this project is actually nolonger becoming fun because of it.
there has just been too much going on and i'm an emotional wreck of a human being, i even nearly just up and quit Royal a few times caus i just dont have the mental energy to work on it right now...