and here we are, I mean here I am (once again), second year of college starts tomorrow.
As normal I have perhaps more positive feelings but the loud negative feelings over shadow them, like why am I doing this? Is this a waste of money? What am I even going to do with it? As someone who's future aspirations include continued existence, making more Barry Goldman songs, my factually impossible Thunder Road/White Album 2 fueled dreamy ideal and more Tims, I can't think ahead for myself, it's not scary so much as sad. But college is perhaps better then nothing or some min wage job you know. But one of those pays me and the other...
College is just that nice safe zone, a pause button on things. Like ah I'm here so I don't have to worry about things! But soon enough I will have to worry about things. I'm not complaining or even in a bad mood, I'm just typing thoughts! It's truly a Charlie Brown at the wall kind of thing, petty non-issues, nothing to be worked up about. Will I do better this school year? Last time I scraped by and lost even more of my already thin focus. But only I can do anything about that silly Manimal! To be honest the things I'm looking forward to for this school year are the lyrics I write, songs I make and all the time I have between classes to read 20th century history books. But maybe if I actually try in the school work I will find something there? I will see eh, but I do wonder what the second year will inspire
https://barrygoldman.bandcamp.com/ to make next...