We'd always rather see you continuing than not Stardust! You can't move forward if you don't try. Otherwise you just stagnate, and nothing gets achieved. As long as you keep trying, there will always be hope. It's when we give up that hope is lost.
Maybe it doesn't feel right today. Maybe it won't feel right tomorrow, or the day after. But I promise you that as long as you keep waking up and trying to make it feel right, one day it will be.
There has been a lot of people come through MR over the years, and a lot of them have felt the same as you do now. A lot of them have gotten discouraged and gave up, yes. But others didn't. They forged ahead, and bettered themselves because of it.
I know first hand that mental illness is a hell of a thing. But you are not your mental illness. It's a part of you, sure, but it is not how you are defined. People are defined by what they do, not what they perceive themselves to be. As long as you can believe that about yourself, creating things will never be a waste of time.
I wish you all the best. We're rooting for you. Always.