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Messages - IndigoDoll90

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MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: September 25, 2023, 07:36:00 AM »
I still don't see how ADHD doesn't change who I am. Anyway I still would like to be an artist but seems doubts keep holding me back still. Doesn't help that though my Dr stopped saying I have Autism and ADHD he is now saying I have anxiety and depression. I really need to stop seeing him especially since with my new insurance I can't afford seeing him not to mention he keeps putting me down when my self esteem is low enough.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: September 06, 2023, 05:55:22 AM »
Artist do tend to be their own worst critic including me. Doesn't help that I still have some trauma and low self esteem due to being labeled ADHD and autistic. Really not sure what to do about that.

Develop Your Story / Manga Diary
« on: July 13, 2023, 10:20:59 AM »
Kind of wanting to get some input on this idea of mine for a short manga before I decide to commit to it. The story is based somewhat on my own life.

Twenty two year old Blance Kindig is a creative, energetic young woman who aspires to be a great artist. However, others around her often misunderstand her causing her to often doubt herself. As she learns ways to overcome her low self esteem she begins to become more confident in herself and her creative abilities.

Sorry if this is kind of a short summary but I'm still coming up with ideas and kind of busy right now.

break Room / Re: I'm Back
« on: July 07, 2023, 03:56:14 PM »
Yeah its been hard but i feel it was for the best. Like i said he was so stupid and wouldnt give me much affection. Yeah every creative type is different. Though I got a lot in common with my dad we express our creativity in different way. My Dad's main way of expressing himself is through building model cars and stuff like that of all things while I mostly draw and write. I just hope this confidence last and I can find a way to stop these thoughts for good. I'm starting to challenge these thoughts that I'm stupid with research like I mentioned earlier I looked up more on the symptoms of autism and even took a test online to see if I might have it which said I most likely don't. Also I think the thoughts are a way for me to worry and get attention. When I was little I would get attention when I was sad and worried but not much when I was happy.

break Room / I'm Back
« on: July 07, 2023, 07:45:00 AM »
Sorry it's been a while since I've last posted on here. Ended up breaking up with my BF sadly. I tried telling myself he's just misunderstood and shy but the more I got to know him the more it occurred to me he actually is stupid. Also he wasn't the most affectionate and just couldn't get any attention from him. I thought I'd come back here so I can be around other creative types. Maybe it will help with the doubts I sometimes have. Was having a really hard time with doubts and constantly thinking I have autism so I started looking up the symptoms of autism and even took a quick online test to get an idea if I might have autism and according to my score I likely don't have autism. Knowing that I may not have autism has seemed to help some with the constant worry that I might have it. I'm starting to think I'm different in the fact that I'm creative. In that case maybe I'm different in a good way.

General Discussion / Re: Where To Post Artwork
« on: May 11, 2023, 03:56:27 AM »
Might try Tumblr but Tumblr has been around for a while as well so might be like Facebook and becoming a thing of the past. I'll have to look into that before I make an account though.

Edit: looked more into Tumblr and hearing that it's very uncensored  which as weird as that may sound I don't think I would like plus I'm hearing bad things about the community. So I think I'll pass on Tumblr as well.

General Discussion / Re: Where To Post Artwork
« on: April 20, 2023, 03:31:06 PM »
Honestly I tried Instagram for my artwork only to hate how they crop the image into a square. I have thought about posting on Facebook but I know that's becoming a thing of the past too and I can kind of see why it's been around since I was in high school school which was a long time ago considering that I'm 32 now and graduated in 2009. Most of my co workers use tik tok and snap chat but while I like how snap chat will delete your post after a day that also makes it not the best for posting art work.

General Discussion / Where To Post Artwork
« on: April 20, 2023, 08:38:36 AM »
I'm not the most up to date on social media but I hear is becoming a thing of the past so I'm wondering what social media to use. Like I said I'm not the most up to date on social media as I don't like to use it that much due to people being mean. However if I'm to get my artwork out I need to post it on social media. Any suggestion where I can post my artwork.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: February 03, 2023, 05:06:35 PM »
Tomorrow it's back to work for me, but Sunday my BF's brother and his family are coming over.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: February 03, 2023, 02:50:20 PM »
Just got back from the Dr luckily it's nothing serious just a stuffy nose when I told the Dr all I have is a stuffy nose she didn't think it was anything serious anyway but since I asked she still tested me anyway and I tested negative for the virus. And that's so nice Coryn been wanting to get back into martial arts myself since it's such a good stress relief and a good way to get energy out. Plus it's good to know how to defend yourself. Sadly I'm usually busy with work that I hardly have time. Still martial arts is really good and need to get back into that.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: February 03, 2023, 02:19:43 AM »
I have the same problem with motivation. As much as I like drawing I also find it work. It also doesn't help that I constantly make up excuses mainly that nothing I do matters, but I'm starting to realize I use that excuse to make myself worry. Anyway I seem to be coming down sick and getting checked out by Dr later today. Hopefully everything ends up okay and I get over this.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: January 31, 2023, 09:38:07 AM »
Well, I quickly discovered that if you have living relatives, it's only a matter of time before they start trying to take control of the process, lol

Most things were worked out between my wife and I, but we had similar vision of scope from the start. There was a lot of keeping up with things though. At the beginning you have to lay out all the things you want, and hop to it because everything needs to be booked a year in advance (that may have improved now that we're farther away from quarantine).

But you have to get the venue first and set a date. After that you can contact everyone else you'll need (bakery, DJ, flowershop, catering, photographer). They'll all put you in the calendar, but then it's the waiting game until they will let you make decisions about 6 months ahead of time. Then a few weeks before the date all the bills come through, which is its own hassle.

Then of course you have to get save the dates and invitations, coordinate with who's going to be in the wedding party, the officiant (if you need one where you live or just want one), suits, dresses, accessories. Do you have to provide tables? Chairs? Silverware? Who's setting it up?

Then there's rehearsal the day before, which for me was the peak of the stress, and assuming you've done everything right the day itself will go smooth, but it's basically at least a year of having a part time wedding planning job.

That being said, if you have the cash to hire someone to do everything for you, be my guest. But as costly as things can get, shooting for smaller is my suggestion.

I've always wanted a simple wedding like my parents minus the getting married in secret. Kind of told my boyfriend my plans but not entirely sure what he thinks. I did tell him how I wanted to get married by a judge like my parents but he wants a church pastor instead, which I guess will be okay. I really want to have an outdoor wedding at the local park but my plan is to get married not this spring but maybe next spring in April so it will depend on the weather. If we have to we will wedding indoors maybe at a church but not entirely sure. Hopefully since I want simple wedding it won't cost that much when I do marry. Also I already plan on having my father be the photographer so that will save money on pictures. Anyway my bf and I are not in much of a rush to marry which is why it will probably be a year or so until we do marry. Besides we need to both learn to be more responsible first.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: January 29, 2023, 10:31:33 AM »
I have a Huion tablet which my boyfriend gave me for drawing on my desktop. He's got a Wacom tablet but it seems way too big for me. Back when I was in school I use to use the Adobe cloud but it's just too expensive. Currently I use a free program similar to clip studio paint called krita for drawing on the computer and it seems to work good for me. Im trying to get my bf into the free programs as well.

MR Pub / Re: Chit Chat 2023
« on: January 25, 2023, 05:28:39 PM »
I'm kind of the same way with computers. Unfortunately since the move haven't been able to spend any on electronics. Besides I got a future to think about and start saving up for. Though my bf and I are in no rush to marry and have kids we are aware of the possibility and depending on how many kids we end up having might end up needing a bigger place so it's best we save up now than later. Also a wedding isn't cheap either and my dad has already said my bf and I are going to have pay for the wedding ourselves. Besides I find it a sexist tradition that the father of the bride has to pay for the wedding so we have that already planned. Anyway finally got an art studio set up in a corner of the bedroom. Nice to finally have the room for one and have one set up. Now to get to drawing more.

break Room / Re: The Status Of Our Fellow Raiders
« on: January 14, 2023, 12:13:10 PM »
Luckily my mom said she will buy the desk for me probably next week or the week after. And yeah I'm more of a casual gamer myself. Play more for the fun of it then to compete. Still it would be a nice skill to learn to build my own pc. Also maybe when I get my art studio set up I will get back into sewing. Still need to finish sewing a reusable bag I started. Starting to feel more confident now that I know I'm just bored and need stuff to do and now want to learn new stuff.

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