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Collaboration (Art Exchange) / Legos Storyboard Requests
« on: February 15, 2020, 08:14:21 AM »
I'm trying to practice panelling and stuff, so if you have a shortish (something that translates to 1 or 2 pages)  (can be prose or script) I'll draw it for you! Maybe it can be of some use to you.

If this is redundant I'll merge it with my first board.

Anime Talk / Favourite Romance Anime?
« on: February 14, 2020, 03:44:12 AM »
I must say I am not the greatest conniseur of romance anime. I tend to avoid it for more darker tragic stories, but the ones that I enjoyed really warmed the heart. I'd love it if I could watch a movie just for fun to rekindle some of those feels.

I remember regretting not finishing Toradora, and the first kiss scene in Bakemonogatari really got to me. I enjoyed those first two seasons. (Come to think of it I really need to finish that anime)

Manga Talk / So is Scanlation dead?
« on: February 01, 2020, 06:46:31 PM »
RIP Mangastream-chan.
And yeah, it's been pretty tough finding chapters recently, and I realize I'm in a totally new era when it comes to manga.

I guess it's time to go legit and subscribe to the proper streaming services and stuff haha

General Discussion / Rambling on Writing and Drawing Manga
« on: February 01, 2020, 06:35:48 PM »
I want to be a mangaka!

I think that's the best way to describe how I got into manga and anime. It was a shameless beautiful love story of seeing something and immediately wanting to create something in the same image.

So far so good.

But then I got old and 'got wiser' and my fire, my ambition got toned down.

I had many good excuses for it too: I'm not ready, yet. I need to fix this anatomical problem. I dont think this is good enough. Honestly this is just a rip-off. Nah, I don't want to start until I'm really good.

And that is the moment I lost.

I even stopped calling my sequential art manga. All in the interests of being as mature, adult and correct as possible as my art. The only shameless innocent enjoyment of manga and anime that remains in my heart these days is drawing big anime eyes, and even that has come under doubt.

I think writing and drawing manga can be a much better experience. Right now the way I feel?

1. Copy, copy, copy forever!

I wish I did more fanart in the beginning of my manga/anime career. I wish I'd tried to draw more Bleach screenshots or copied more manga pages. I wish I did that a lot and faithfully in fact.

The reason is right now I've fallen into that false narrative of becoming some sort of Da Vinci Level artist who can spawn ideas from nothing and needs to study art from zero. A preposition that in of itself is false because Da Vinci more than anyone studied things around him to learn his craft.  

Drawing an apple in your house and carefully breaking down a pen into a cylinder and a cone may be the 'right' way to learn to draw and see the world, but as far as I'm concerned as someone who loves manga and anime, I say start by drawing exactly the hero you find cool, exactly the scene you find cool.  Regular, boring repetitive excercise is the name of the game, but that will never happen if you don't start by following what you're interested in.

Copy the greats. Copy the anime and manga that have inspired you. Keep it to yourself, but copy, copy copy. I don't even need to say the next step because you'll get there on your own.

2. Just Do It

No need to go deeper than that, but I've found that drawing is really as simple as looking up a wikihow article on 'how to draw an anime girl'.

You follow that step by step on the crappiest paper in the world and I swear you're that one drawing better than all the great thinkers and philosophers in the world who are too worried about how their work will look to even put a pencil on paper (not to say that writers/artist block doesn't exist. Not at all. I suffer it ALL the time!)

3. There is a healthier way to experience critique

The mangaraiders I landed in carried me to the highest heavens with every post I made. I am eternally thankful for that. In fact? Sometimes I think I've been a better critic to myself than anything anyone could ever say.

Knowing that you suck happens naturally. It happens after you have time to draw enough with others to know you're lagging behind a little or not. It happens when your first attempt at drawing your own art after copying your inspiration turns out really bad. It will happen. That's why I think people should appreciate the difference between information and a constructive critique.

Oh God, of course my hands are bad. Of course the waist is skewed. I can tell a man has a limp within fractions of a second. Of course I know my drawing is off. It's not your obligation and you can be as 'direct' as you want, but if your intention is communicating the hope that I approve then send a lifeline, some link, some message, some super specific small constructive thing that I could do to improve my art.

And accept that I will decide on whether to act on that or not

4. Bad and Good does exist

I notice it every time I binge read comics while waiting for my weeklys' to update. I'm sorry/not-sorry but there are standards to art and writing. They exist. Yes: Bad art exists. Good art exists. Bad comics exist, good comics exist. Forget about the funky gray zone: Everyone judges a story. To be honest as an artist and writer I should never, ever, ever ever judge the Full Metal Alchemist movie because I could never make CGI like that or even edit or cut a movie like that... But I hate its guts.

This will also happen on the professional manga anime level

And even on the amateur level. It's automatic. It can't be controlled. It's actually a good thing in the long run because 1. You can argue constructively against someones' opinions and 2. You can find what is closer to your heart when it comes to the medium.

This is also helpful to realize as a writer/artist because you should know that only one thing will satisfy you artistically in the end:

The pile of papers you have in your closet at the end.

Yeah, getting serialized, getting a commission and winning are very very very cool things,

but the only thing you can only ever win in is this: Did you draw? Did you write?

Because I swear you can change your art style all you want. You can cry, bleed, sweat, scream, laugh, twist, change yourself in every way possible to meet every demand of the helpful critic or the audience. You can try to meet those needs. In fact, some people are more fulfilled chasing after that dream.

But when all is said and done I think personally no one will ever satisfy everyone with how they draw or write, and that's the beauty of it all , everyone's different, everyones' got an intepretation, everyones' got a certain why they hold a pen, a way they spin words.

Bad art and good art exists. BUT FOCUS ON YOUR ART.

P.S Critique would be muchly appreciated

Collaboration (Art Exchange) / MangaRaiders on Aggie io
« on: February 01, 2020, 05:55:37 PM »
Link to room: https://aggie.io/dmuuqqz5p6

General rule is: Save anything you feel is nice and be nice!

So this exists


I'm thinking there could be some fun times with this

Tips and Tutorials / Legos How-tos
« on: November 21, 2019, 05:08:57 PM »
I'll be posting 'tutorials' or 'tips' from my side of doing art. Absolutely go to the greats on youtube and everything to see how things are done properly, but I hope that I can give some interesting insights of my own.

How To Build A Fantasy World With Cola, Pen and Paper

Ingredients: Coke (or any drink that stains. Wine works great I hear), Paper and Pen.

Step 0: Randomly generate the map name

I typed out adiohfou gob

and came up with  Adio - Land of Dead Gods

Step 1: Spill coke
Step 2: Use intuition to draw out major landmasses.

After it dries it looks like this

Step 3: Fill in details and add names as you wish

Step 4: Build lore

Now that I have this map before me the lore comes itself. I'll make my pitch now.

Adio - The Land of Dead Gods

The name actually commemorates the Creation Story of this land. In order to fight off A Grand Evil so beyond concepts of darkness and bad that  all the gods of the land sacrificed themselves to destroy It. Thus, the inhabitants of this land can live on. Adio is a prayer and a rememberance of this great deed.

Adio Magic System

After the gods left, spellcraft has been reduced to weaving mana from nature itself.

 There are various schools of thoughts as to how this works and which is more effective, but the canonical reason (As in I'm telling you) is that The Caterpillar God, an evil god decided he would lower himself so that his followers always had access to his power without any of the other gods knowing.

He sacrificed three quarters of his mana and weaved it into the fabric of the land unnoticed, which cursed some of the land when too strong but otherwise became the basis for mana in the whole land. Without this deed humans would have no way to tap into magic, as magic could only in ancient times be accessed by supplicating the many gods that roamed the land.


In Adio, there are 2 Major Kingdoms worth mentioning. 1. Akamonia and 2. Oruk  (The 3rd, Hopt was destroyed by an unknown disaster and is so haunted by ghosts, demons and other creatures no one knows exactly what happened there. Even Fineus failed to discover what happened there.)

1 Akamonians are a human race that uphold the values of The Dragon Goddess Akako. She was a dragon who breathed golden flame that burnt eternally - in fact the last flame still burns in a temple at the heart of the Akamonian kingdom.

Their domain is highly clerical and religious, with constant triple-check systems that enforce absolute discipline and forsight. Typically, there is the Main office, the Higher office and then the Shadow office. 

From Government to Church to School Systems this three-tiered system presents itself everywhere.

In all cases The Shadow Office is always staffed by two kingdom-trained assassins who deal solely in death or life-long imprisonment. If the Higher Offices in place cannot prevent corruption then the Shadow Office steps in.


Though now a highly aesthetic warrior race, Akamonians are travelling merchants and documenters at heart. Fineus is their national hero: He's the only man to have travelled the length of the continent to and fro without dying, circumventing the catepillar pass, the Ruins of Hopt and reaching even the Elf Gate before age and the importance of his carried documents prompted him to return with all the things he had seen and mapped. All future advancement owes itself to the pioneering states of Fineus.

Akamonians are olive skinned, but their dominion is so great there are other colours within their races. Of note is when albinos' appear, they are revered as holy clerics and typically scouted by the religious sides of kingdom.

Akamonian warriors are knights that depend on steelwork embued with 'holy' runes.

Akamonians have precise language and speak very fast.

Akamonians believe strongly in prayer despite the knowledge that the gods are gone. It is in every aspect of their daily life and part of their orientation in the world.

2. Orukians

I got lazy. Sue me they're orcs. Basically.

Orukians have a caste-based system that shuffles every 4 years where a great battle royale takes place and new blood rises to the top. Only special outsiders such as wise men, craftsmen and honoured heroes are left alone. Otherwise every man, woman and child is forced to fight or yield to another, with the severity of servitude wholly dependent on the victor.

Gladrider was an Orukian who fell in love with an elf and left the land. His whole family was massacred and eternally shamed, until he returned with a glowing sun-stone that grew an entire forest on the once rocky plans of the land of Oruk.

The Orukoru forest is a sacred land full of beasts that the Orukians hunt for sport and for food. Their diet had mainly consisted of cannibalism and fish at first until then.

Gladrider also constructed the Babylon pass (it's in perfect alignment with a magical leyline that passes through the Elf Gate that crosses the continent up to Fineus's arm. While Fineus's arm is on the right place, it's constructed with the wrong alignment, an unfortunate fact as this leyline is a magical defence barrier if constructed properly.)


They are basically orcs in appearance and clothing style. They speak the same tounghe as the whole land, but just deeper. Their art expresses itself in silent dance and stone-craft. Their martial arts focuses on good armour and guantlets spiked elbows, knees and feet for killing strikes and blows. They can jump 10 times their height and are hell to fight against, but their exposive energy exhausts them if they overdo it.

Orukians praise all the dead evil gods, but know that they are not around.

Orukians equate honour to life. Even words can injure someones' honour.

Some places

The Witchery, The Wizards' Catacomb and The Wizards' Tower all refer to a singular Hermit of the name Hyl. Hyl is the first trained wizard who comes close to the nature of spellcraft and magic on the world. He also investigated the reason why there are no elves on the world, and went as far as building a Twoer near the Elf harbour, the famed place full of strange magicks and dangerous technologies - its greatest feature being a port build for gigantic ships that obviously sailed away.

The Wizard travelled far through the land and Fineus met him once during their journey. The two were very friendly on a scholarly basis, but neither truly understood the other.

In his old age The Wizard left clues around the continent that lead all those intelligent enough or skilled in spellcraft to find his gigantic home and library at The Witchery. There, a group of witches have taken it upon themselves to teach the magic arts and use the library for good.

The Wizard is said to have left north to build a necropolis for himself (Canon explanation: He's been messing around with magic so much when he dies he'll unleash a curse in the area. The Catacombs are now full of demons and wraiths.)

The Devils' Mouth

A Volcano and a strong source of mana

Tower of Insight
Tower is a misnomer, because it goes underground to a chamber lighted with dull crystals and a brackish shallow lake. Here, the acoustics and smell are enough to trigger 'eye opening' hallucinations as reported by several travellers. However, not so bad enough that one cannot leave when they wish.

Not many people visit the place, as the nearby Ruins of Hopt are too dangerous to circumvent.

Elf Gate

Canon: The Elf Gate was built by the Elves to seal off the Adio continent in the East from any massive invasion. It's connected to the reason they built the massive ships and left the continent altogether.

And I've made my pitch. It goes on and on and on. The more I think about things the more details come up in my mind, and I haven't even really labelled that much in the story, let alone started working on the characters. Don't bother too much reading what I've written down, but with this simple method you can have a map and a world ready to go. Maps are powerful things

General Discussion / Why I Use MS Paint
« on: November 19, 2019, 09:12:35 AM »
Why I use MS Paint

This is why I use MS Paint, and these are my thoughts about the whole habit.

1. Jumping In and Mental Stamina

I'm a master procrastinator.

There is a crucial 60 seconds between deciding to do a task and jumping into it that determines everything. The last few years have not been fun in the motivation department, with unreliable bursts of inspiration followed by huge slumps in the will to draw.

The only saving grace is that I love doing regimens on the side, so that I don't lose out on productivity (And I dare say it's been quite effective. I'll write on that).

What's really helped me in those slow months is MS Paint and its bare bones, No-nonsense interface. I've drawn countless, countless things with MS Paint because I don't feel mentally tasked at all.

Yes, even that scratchy ugly pencil tool works to my advantage, because I see images in the scribbles, I feel like I'm exploring the canvas and have no distractions from a myriad of tools and from the huge burden of expectation.

Mental Stamina is what I call the ability to sit down and do 'deep work.' And while I'm working on improving that and have good sessions, it runs out at crucial times when I want to jump into drawing. MS Paint has helped with that.

2. It makes me not care about feedback - Negative or Positive

The less I feel invested in the praise/curse of other viewers, the more likely I'm able to make art.

It's the quintessential answer to a lot of my hangups whether it be in writing, drawing or music: If I objectively realize that I am producing sub-par work (or at least work that could look better in other software) then I need not feel guilty if it doesn't turn out great, and I need not feel pressured if people find something good in what I've drawn.

Hell, I've gotten scathing remarks for my MS Paint drawings that would've ended my motivation if I'd been 'seriously' drawing with a high end software.

It helps me filter out positive and negative feedback and just jump in and draw. I was successful in this by being able to make 8 chapters for SLG, two for Digital Dragons because between flow and not truly caring I was able to make stuff uninhibited. Same with my music: I just sit down and play my four chords and it's such a relaxing feeling.

3. Beating The Epic Artist

There is also another aspect of the feedback thing that is truly hard to express.

I have a strange grudge against a phantom 'Epic Artist' that seems to always have time to come along and observe my every move and has always been criticizing me with holier-than-thou advice and a sly side-smile that says:

"I'm better than this fool, and he's doing nothing. He could be doing X Y Z but even if I tell him... Sigh... Lego Lego... This guy... I swear. Ah well, it can't be helped. Leave him be."

I see that guy and when it gets too much, when I feel stagnated by that criticism and inability to move I just sort of... let go.

I let go of the expectation to please them. I let go of the competition. I just do.

And I do it in a sort of rage and excitement. A vindictive 'Oh YEAH?! Then how about THIS."

I've had some great personal spiritual victories by doing that. When I noticed, "Hey. I might've drawn something bad, but now that I look back I have this bunch of drawings, these ideas and concepts I've actually executed, and that idol, that Epic Artist hasn't even done anything lately (even if he'd destroy me if he did), so I win."

It's like winning a race against Usain Bolt because Usain Bolt is too busy playing video games. If he gets off the couch it's game over no matter how far the track you are, but until then the reality is that small victory. And it's sweet while it lasts.

4. Flow

A lot of my reasons for using MS Paint come from an emotional side, but say what you want, there is an intuition to the program that deserves objective praise.

I can churn out ideas like nobodys' business. I can't believe how good it is at being able to just get straight to the point, to just DO. And of course, and of course... What if you get back to those unfinished projects later? If I master working up my super sketchier stuff, then MS Paint isn't even a barrier to my art but a great companion. (Still, I'm definitely using Photoshop more as I write this.)

Sometimes when I see the videos I made I realize how objectively true it is. There's no pen pressure standing in my way, no fiddling - I just draw and explore shapes. Pen to canvas.  When I watch the videos I get this alien feeling as if it was someone else drawing and I even feel jealous of that person who's using MS Paint (Me.).


1. OK, you win, MS Paint isn't exactly the best

This is an age old argument: Do you need to use a ballpoint pen or a pencil? Why learn music with your feet when you have hands? What's the point of learning perspective and the finer fundamentals of art when you can get 3d generated backgrounds - heck when you can pay for them? Why take a car when you can take a bike without any forseeable consequences in terms of deadlines? Why be efficient at all when you can complete the same tasks anyway? IS there a need to save time, to make things easier?

I've been the Champion of Impracticality. I love the idea of working with harder tools, with playing with bad sounding guitars and restricting myself to get that Goku Gravity Chamber feeling of beating hard odds. Some part of me will always be like that.

 But my answer?

If you can do it faster, do it faster. If it can go easier, go for that.

The reason I refused to 'just use a better software' had a lot to do with my personally justified feelings about the matter, but it also had to do with A Distinct Unwillingness To Learn From Another Human. Unless it's a lecturer at a university, or a neutral Youtube video that isn't directly talking to me, or some great book written and published by someone, I lost my ability to take feedback from fellow humans, and fellow artists. Like a fool.

I've learnt my language through University and School and Teachers and Youtube and Books yes, but I've learnt even more from colleagues, friends, peers, from children. Their advice and pointers are every bit as valuable as someone who's trained in the field. Heck, I'm more in contact with 'fellow humans' than not, by virtue of the Internet.

I used to be good at being humble and accepting that advice, but as far as MS Paint was concerned that was a no-go. Absolute nuh-uh.

I think I might've overlooked some pretty simple important tips. I think that even if I didn't pay attention to them, I could've at least tried to draw ONE drawing according to the advice (And by the logic of my own arguments about Flow and simplicity, I should've been able to do that without any cost, correct?)

So yeah. MS Paint is not the optimal software to get into drawing. Digital software has advanced to well, one does absolutely miss out on some great features that can make your drawing life even better.

2. Double Caveat.

I reserve the right to still double down and screw around with MS Paint, because I've got one last reason I use MS Paint: It encourages people.

I experimented with the idea in another facebook group with a couple of friends who were wallowing and barely posting anything. For a group that was made for 'a drawing a day' I felt frustrated because not only was nobody posting: Not even I was.

So I draw a stick figure Goku powering up in MS Paint and that was that.

They laughed that didn't work quite yet, but then I started drawing comics, storyboards.

You see, even if it doesn't look 3 dimensional or pristine I was still able to convey images and ideas, and I think that is something that people forget no matter what skill level (and believe you me there are beasts in the group that I joined) That art communicates ideas. That even if that finger looks like a balloon right now if your characters' name is Fred and he likes to collect antique sofas you have a story to tell.  That so long as it's readable you can depict how aliens come up from the ground in massive drills to invade an unsuspecting city.

Idea and Inspiration first - then the rest.

Or something like that.

I'm not sure if any of this made sense, but it's felt great to finally write it out. Take whatever cents you can, leave the rest. Or call me out and let's talk. Would love to hear your thoughts.


MR Pub / Secret Santa Drawing 2019!
« on: November 18, 2019, 06:54:36 PM »

Christmas is around the corner again raiders!

And I don't care if you're a green skinned creature of the night like me, we all like presents.

Make a drawing request for your Secret Santa and send me a PM, and I will send it along to another raider.

Remember: It's not about the skill level, just the fun of it all. So 1. Wholesome requests and 2. Nothing tooo complicated

Manga Writer workshop / Urban Writing
« on: November 10, 2019, 08:03:31 AM »
I'm playing around with the idea of something I'm calling 'urban writing.' Where I describe a room I'm in using words or short sentences.

As an artist I find myself always running away from drawing backgrounds, and that's a bit of the same in my writing to be honest, so I sort of hope this hobby helps.

(Plus I feel like a cool kid coining a term)

What do you guys thing? How good are you in general with backgrounds (whether artist or writer)?

Also some examples of what i've done



 Train carriage. Cieling lined with white flourescents. Passenger chairs with handles. Trays on their back. Nets at their seat. An electronic sign that displays date, time train info and direction o travel

Dentist: Waiting room. Clean. A red semicircle carpet with childrens' chairs. Big knock-off legos of blue, red and green. Puppets in a mass together. Can only see their legs.

Cups on a try with Eisbacher medium water (green label)

A modern metal shelf with boring medical magazines and one tabloid. A white rubber duck.

Dr J in a red baseball polo shirt. White collars. Bespectacled. He has a nice smile. Kind eyes.

Pictures on a wall set on the vague approximation of a star. Smiling personnell.

Comfortable with chairs w leather seats and wooden armrests

Light brown curtains with minimalist stripe patterns. One plant in the corner with long blades of grass and some stalks with white fluffy tips. Light hidden behind wood that splashes on plaster walls.

2 walls yellow - the rest white.

Near the water - Business cards. Another (plastic) shelf with "Für Sie zum mitnehmen" A heater made by Danfoss

The room is war. Glass door. "Wartezimmer"  in reverse. Clean floor. A bin with a step-on lever. An elongated dome. R2D2 Shape.

T's place

Table, cups and nail polish. Chocolate cigarette tobacco. Ashtray. Wooden bowl with self-made mushrooms. Flatscreen TV. Xbox. Wooden book shelves.


Checkered floor, posters of rockbands on the wall. A string with buddist prayers printed on cloth. Mickey Mouse with CDs for ears. A fridge with cutesey brown-white anime characters. Yellow smiley fridge magnets. Blue spice rack with Habu on it.

Collaboration (Art Exchange) / Lego draws your requests
« on: July 26, 2019, 07:25:01 PM »
Yes I am talking in 3rd person.

Yes I'm stealing other peoples Ideas

No they won't be that good, but I need the excercise

break Room / Raider Gamer Squad
« on: July 26, 2019, 04:46:38 AM »
Okay Raiders. Who here has Apex Legends? Rainbow 6?

I want to make a MangaRaider gaming squad where we record singular battles in the field and upload to MR Youtube.

As far as I'm concerned, one successful match recording  would be fun.

Would anyone be interested?  (Regardless, I would like to jam any one of these games with a Raider. I'm shocked I haven't done that yet. )

I made this on a whim that took me about 15 minutes. A 6 frame animation in mspaint + moviemaker + an online gif converter

I will encourage you to do this by telling you how I felt doing this:

- too lazy
- unable to draw anatomy to save my life
- tempted to perfect every detail to make the animation work better but working against it


If that didn't help, then I'll try to share my argument on the matter of art and animation in general.

Never forget that the human mind always tries to understand things.

Seriously. Whatever you draw, no matter how 'bad' you think it is always provokes a response in someone. It always means something no matter what 'level' you think you are. More than that: It excites people to think and ask about it.

Sometimes you can think that your art is boring or too normal or empty (Or maybe that's only me) but the thing is no matter what you draw, so long as you have a name and a feeling about it there is always life behind your drawing.

Trust me, even if your greatest work is a simple circle, the circle can have more personality than even some holywood films that try and fail to flesh out a character.

Trust me, your simple drawings, your sketches have meaning. Your art is awesome.

If you don't feel so sure about that, post any of your art here and I'll try to animate it to show you what i mean.

 (no matter what level you are. I'll redraw it in my level of art but I will make a simple 6 frame animation that brings your drawing to life.)

General Discussion / Too Much Inspiration
« on: June 30, 2019, 10:32:26 AM »
God I need to find a better way to title these things, but what the hell, I'll just get started. This is a 1st World Art Problem if there ever was one, but it's there, and it's annoying.

I wanted to buy a guitar on ebay so I took a 2 hour train ride to some relatively remote township to get the thing. It was suburbia as you'd imagine it: Manicured lawns, hop-scotch chalk on the sidewalks and more cobblestone than actual tarmac. Nice place.

After getting the cheap but awesome new guitar for 25 bucks (love the thing. Steel strings. They hurt but sound so nice) I was walking home when I saw this:

And an image immediately popped into my head. About a month later after coming up from air I finally drew it, but it's pretty much what I saw when I saw it:

The funny thing is I'd played a game the weekend before seeing this stick, at a rave party with a couple of friends. They gave me drawings that looked like something and challeneged me to draw something else from them (tv screen to a face, a toothbrush to an aeroplane, that sort of thing.)

This sort of thing, where simple shapes and scribbles can turn into drawings is a huge thing for me. I love it when I'm in the zone and inspired and is an asset for churning out characters and thumbnails and just putting ideas down. I know it is. I should be stoked about this.

But the problem is I feel too charged with ideas, really. I can work with almost anything and that murders my focus.

I wish I were more systematic about how I worked with ideas, on my projects and the like. Heck, drawing the actual image itself took so long because I just felt stagnant and choked. The odd thing is, I see these things in patterns and random features and instead of feeling inspired there's this amazing sense of boredom and the mundane that sinks onto me.

Like 'Well, it's not THAT great of an idea to draw anyways. Surely there must be something better or more useful for you to do. Just wait.'

I suppose my perspective is the thing that's the problem here. I should focus on the positivity of it all and just draw and draw and draw, but I keep on freezing because I'm thinking 'Is this really it? And what about completing actual projects? And who the hell picks up sticks and photographs them and draws them? That's such a bother. I should do something else.'

I have no idea if I could get my idea across here. Anyhoo, I just felt like sharing it for some reason.  Also. Workshop idea maybe? Meh.

Tips and Tutorials / Use your anonymity to your advantage
« on: April 26, 2019, 06:47:48 PM »
The interwebs is a mysterious place, full of dark dark dangers and magnificent memes. It can be a scary place, yes. It is a scary place if you're not careful, but it can also be amazing, especially if say you want to be a mangaka, an animator, a game developer, a musician. Heck, a professional mime, or if you want to a professional tea-taster.

I'll argue this in context of MR to make the choice small, but really when you come here we're not going to 'judge' you for anything other than what you post and how you interact with us.

You can avatar the heck out of yourself and be the craziest personality and try out all the projects you're scared of or not confident of because heck it's the internet and you really are free.

You should appreciate this: You can connect with minds across the world, get access to cool and friendly people and practical knowledge to stuff that'll fuel your dreams, all without having to deal with people judging you for your facial expression or how you look or what you're wearing (nothing against cleaning your room and taking out the trash, though. That stuff is more important than you'd think)

Honestly, you can get all the wins without any losses. It's like a grand roleplaying game where you can define yourself and put a healthy barrier between your goals and your self. Even though it's never easy, you can get the critique you need without needing to feel as bad as you could about it if it was say face to face. And best of all, you can have fun with it.


To prove my point. I'll just give you some shameless plugs of my personal experience first

1. Roleplaying with a random group on Deviantart for some months when I was personally 'irl' rock bottom as an awesome magician. I made so much RP related art that year that I not only got to have a nice escape and feel good times and make at least two long lasting relationships with friends I still email now, I got to practice art and animation on the side because I dived into some niche groupe somewhere.

2. The MR Canon. I've had at least 5 moments in my life where I'm completely engrossed in my writing experience while listening to music and thinking up scenarious and planning, drawing and writing stuff all because I came up with a weird internet persona and met other people willing to play with that sort of thing. This is sort of like the above example, I guess, but no, both experiences were uniquely diverse and different enough that I could mention them separately.

3. Drawing a 5 minute one punch man fanart on reddit, I got 54 likes (yeah yeah, puny number in comparision to the greats but i liked it, OK?) and felt like a boss. On mspaint. When I was feeling lazy.
If you're on the internet trust me you can find enough people who are interested in the stuff that you like that you can comfortably screw around, have fun and have some fun experiences.

Actually I've only mentioned the super rosy and happy experiences that I've had. I actually value the frustrating annoying moments and critiques that I took personally more because they have definitely opened my eyes to my life as a pseudo artist, writer and green alien cat in general. Definitely don't like it in the moment, but later down the line I realize how lucky I've been. 


This is where I sound like a wiki article and give you tips/suggestions  on how to bank on internet anonymity

1. Why not join a not-so-popular webcomic site and start your crazy webcomic idea? It can literally be one panel that says 'I want to be a mangaka! But I don't know how! So I'll just start a random webcomic and see how that works out!'  Literally nothing is stopping you from this.

2. Have you ever tried to critique a random comic/story that NOBODY knows about online? Looked for the latest post in a forum/ on a comic site and tried to really dive into a story made by a fellow human who is just starting out, and tried to seriously write out a review about it? Trust me, the thing that'll bring you further on the large waves of the interwebs is realizing that even though there are billions and billions of posts and opinions, behind every single one is a human being and if you sacrifice your time to give careful though and feed excitement to someone's project you'll only get better as a person. Trust me, it's worth the random meeting.

3. Why not try making a gif/meme out of a scene out of your favourite tv show? Trust me. 5 googles later (and some downloads maybe) you'll be able to make a gif for a TV show and post it on the interwebs and trust me memes are immortal therefore you are immortal.

4. You can literally start a podcast/youtube channel right now documenting how you are progressing with your art/writing life. (I'll elaborate on this later because this ties into the concept of nobody gives a damn/ not giving a damn and how that can work for you, but yeah)

5. Ask questions. Nothing beats asking questions. There's a different between Googling information and asking for knowledge on something. Because otherwise what's the point of conversation?

6. Post your top 10 most listened to music/ your top 10 anime / your top 10 writing instruments.

7. Write a lightnovel using only cliches

8. Post a story idea with a beginning and end and let people talk about it.

9. Make a playlist for your favourite manga/anime


In general, I just think people get too hyperfocused on the more statistical side of the internet (likes, dislikes, tweets, retweets, reposts) that they forget that it is a free market world where you can do a lot of stuff and enjoy a lot of things according to your own interests and likes no matter what skill level you are or how your objective day to day life is doing. Of course people will miss you if you are gone for months at a time and there is no avoiding having your own opinion on things no matter how much you 'fake' your online persona. But in the end you really do have a grand chance to be detached enough to tackle problems and approach situations in a way you never really would irl.

Depending on how comforatble you feel you can remove more of your anonymity over time, but otherwise you can use it to your fullest.

This is most definitely incoherent bull. But it is my 2 cents of incoherent bull.

General Discussion / Interesting Revelations by getting a job offer
« on: February 18, 2019, 05:23:00 PM »
Gotta be a bit careful with this one because I'm still gathering my thoughts about it and building up upon it, but it's interesting and relevant enough to share. At least I hope.

TL:DR Waited centuries for acknowledgement that was already being freely given, but was too hung up on it and didn't want to move forward. Moving forward now.

Ever had such an out of experience happy moment that you get pissed off about things in the past as a result? No? Just me? Well exactly that has happened. Pissed off isn't even the word just a sort of deep dissapointment and something akin to disgust? At my past self and hang ups.

I was urban sketching as people with too much time tend to do and having a horriblefun time of it, alternatively zoning and cursing my drawing - proportion-sama why are you so cruel - and just doing what I've done a bunch of times with no big expectations. This was one of those great sunny winter days where the air is fresh and the sun is bright (but as effective as a light bulb) and the colours are so much richer, somehow. If I had colours with me I'd paint something.

Anyhow I was almost done and this crew of 3 unassuming arabic dudes - sneakers jackets 30-40s types walk past me. One of them walks back and says 'Yo dude that's sick. You drew that? Nice!'

I appreciated it quite a bit. Said as much. But that wasn't the end of the conversation. "You want to draw my restaurant? Can you do interiors?"

I'm like "Well yes I'm *censored* but I can draw interiors. I like drawing. I know the place."

Hand wave. "Come."

And we go. Smalltalk along the way and I'm pretty bemused by the whole thing. He's super friendly. I set myself outside and start drawing the restaurant. I'm just having fun and this dude offers me tea on the house and even gets me a free meal. Somewhere along the line I find out this guy is a legit shop owner and stuff, and the drawing will be for sentimental reasons, but he also offers me instagram followers and a book commission, even at the very least the chance to sketch a fancy cocktail bar where at least one free drink will be on the table. I'm bemused as all hell and getting excited even.

Meeting ends and I'm in the present, reeling from all of this. I have one last exam to write before I truly chew over this but I'm thinking, more than the phenomenal validation of some amount of marketablility of my work, that I've wasted a hell of a lot of time seeking approval when I could've just been going along getting stuff done.

This is literally a self-made problem. It's the same cheese I hit myself with when it came to writing. I had no idea I had it in me to write paid commissions until I did it and got cash for it. And now this. I thought my realistic perceptions of my level of art were on point, but they were a bit too pessimistic, and I should've done a lot more to push myself and do what I wanted to do and risk what I wanted to risk without waiting for approval. I can see about 8 or more wasted years of wasted farting about at a minimum because of all this foot dragging.

I'm not saying my ish smells like rosy flowers of the field, I'm just saying I should've focused on my stuff while ignoring the noise. And while I'm happy as heck to be free of that rut (never getting hung up again) I'm so, so bitter about it all. This is not a lesson I'm having fun learning about, but it's important all the same.

To close off this particular revelation: I am my own watcher. Seen dudes do one drawing a day minimum as a regimen on their IG that led to some great results. I'm doing something like that. My writing needs love. 1,000 words a day may be crazy/not crazy enough. I'll need to see, but I'm definitely making a self commitment to myself on that.

I'm still on the improvement circuit, but there are some stories and comics I need to wrap up and slam dunk. They're going to be worth something to at least one person out there, and I'm going to finish them as a commitment to myself and on the off chance I'll reach one person I will miss if I don't get to work on that.

God I'm pissed as all hell. I'm hoping when I get to terms with it I'll be able to look at this all positively, but now I just want to sucker punch my past self. Or make him deaf.

Second part of the revelation is: Marketing is a completely other thing than Creativity. It's a circuit that needs to be practiced and cultivated somehow, and I'll look into it tentatively. Really, I don't want (and can't. I know myself) to be an entrepreneur. Heck, I don't even want fame. But I can at least make a front that isn't cowering under a blanket under a carpet in a basement under an Igloo in the North Pole. I can be ninja, but I don't need to deny my existence. That's going too far.

Did I mention proportions are frustrating to learn? K.

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